|
[30 Mar 2005|12:57pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 groggy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
converge | in her shadow |
] |
today is my nineteenth birthday.
stick a fork in this journal, it's done.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ___________thaw
SEE LAST ENTRY ABOUT BEING ADDED
IF YOU ARE STUMBLING ACROSS THIS
AND IT WAS A LONG TIME AGO, JUST
COMMENT ON MY NEW ONE.
|
|
|
[30 Mar 2005|12:08am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 contemplative |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
roses are red | white and gold |
] |
ATTENTION.
this is rather important considering how ridiculous it is. i have had alot of time to think tonight, several perspectives, several phantoms from the past, with different intentions and feelings saturating every second of my walk through grand haven after dark. the warm air, the sound of the train as it rushed by me, and the flood of thoughts that destroyed every trace of everything, every other spring, every other winter, everything melts together, but now i claw my way out of this maelstrom with something new. tomorrow night i will no longer be using this journal, i know that seems fucking absurd, but shut up, it's not really that much of an inconvenience.
COMMENT AND TELL MY WHY YOU SHOULD BE ON MY FRIENDS LIST.
if you do not comment you will not be added. there will only be one more entry in this one, and then i'm switching to the other one.
thank you and goodnight.
|
|
|
[29 Mar 2005|04:47am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
last perfection | everyone is a poet |
] |
i just ordered so much shit for my birthday.
me and kenny stay up all night and talk about licking buttholes and what it does for us.
|
|
|
[28 Mar 2005|05:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 exanimate |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
converge | jane doe |
] |
these floods of you are unforgiving. pushing passed me spilling through the banks. and i fall. faster than light and faster than time. that's how memory works, at least in the dark where i'm searching for meaning. when i'm just searching for something. i want out. out of every awkward day, out of every tongue tied loss. i want out. out of the burdening nightsweats. out of the rising seas of blood. lost in you like saturday nights. searching the streets with bedroom eyes. just dying to be saved. run on girl, run on.
|
|
|
[28 Mar 2005|02:26am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 excited |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
deadwater drowning | the best sex i ever had |
] |
i just ordered this.
p.s. band practice tomorrow.
|
|
| nurse, would you please prep the patient for the sexual doctor |
[27 Mar 2005|04:57am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
tired |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
nevea tears | bellendaine |
] |
tonight we went to becky's birthday party for a second and then left to go to luke's secret party/show thing, it was pretty good, i saw some kids i haven't seen in forever. i was pretty pissy tonight. i think i can give myself some credit for that, pissiness isn't unwarranted that often. alot of people are a disappointment, sometimes the mechanical social nature and dull non existant wit of almost everyone wears down my nerves until i feel like vomitting on the next person that speaks, the next fucking person that laughs at anything anyone else says. just running through the same fucking cycles i guess, at least the sudden normalcy of the sun being out during the day, and some warm car rides are starting to perk me up a little. i definately need some more perk in my life.
|
|
|
[25 Mar 2005|09:53pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 happy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
daughers | pants, meet shit |
] |
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i met you finally. we brought you home. the end.
|
|
|
[24 Mar 2005|12:18pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
daughters | the ghost with the most |
] |
alex is designing my no love no hope tattoo. dear alex: i love you. i am trying to convince her to start a clothing company or something so she can make money off of stupid kids like me. i would also like to be involved with something like that, hook me up.
|
|
| post mortem beauty queen |
[23 Mar 2005|12:51am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
crowpath |
] |
know that i've lost all compassion. know that she's cursed by a brooding. may i mar you father, as to cut through your mask of benevolence and reveal your vile burden. i will watch you burn.
i will watch you burn
|
|
|
[21 Mar 2005|01:39pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
curlupanddie | runner up in a carson daly lookalike contest |
] |
this is the face taylor makes when she has AIDS
p.s.
i am sick of hearing about things. i am sick of talking about things, i'm sick of questions, i'm sick of what everyone has going on. stab me in the fucking head.
|
|
|
[21 Mar 2005|01:37pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crushed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
curlupanddie | god is in his heaven... |
] |
today i realized the truth of what you all have been telling me all along, that i refused to believe. the truth about her, and how she really feels about me. it's all true...
|
|
|
[21 Mar 2005|01:27am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
contemplative |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
curlupanddie | absolute denial of the ultimate nullifier |
] |
it's a choice between good and evil. evil seems so unappealing and so sickeningly desirable, and good has already fled, leaving me on country road with the unknown, who has already replaced your face. just the knowledge that someone else is capable of having a smile like that brings alot of hope to me.
|
|
| left in kowloon |
[19 Mar 2005|11:12pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
happy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
premonitions of war | mother night |
] |
dear sarah, regardless of life's twists and shortcomings, that moment was almost heartstoppingly beautiful and i will remember it forever, thank you. <3.
dear people of the free world:
rob and i are fucking rock stars.
|
|
| close your eyes and never get to love me |
[18 Mar 2005|07:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
it dies today | the last face she'll ever see |
] |
i guess someday you will become just like her. another old story i talk too much about with someone else, and old set of cuts that don't sting anymore, another dead limb.
|
|
|
[17 Mar 2005|11:16pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sad |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
sentenced | killing me, killing you |
] |
each of these days that draws us apart
takes a piece from my
takes a piece from my heart.
|
|
|
[17 Mar 2005|01:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
it dies today | sentiments of you |
] |
me and rob and casey went to rape lake and got fucking PISSED.
|
|
|
[16 Mar 2005|07:07pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 dead |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
it dies today | marigold |
] |
i must convey in this life: nothing can last forever.
|
|
|
[15 Mar 2005|02:08pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
let it die | thick as thieves |
] |
you showed up during the last song. wow.
|
|
|
[14 Mar 2005|12:04pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 determined |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
let it die | already dead |
] |
everything i love left me. everything i cared for died or changed. i've fallen, i've failed. and i lost everything i fought to gain. over, OVERCOME. every time you spit in my face. over, OVERCOME. add more weight, i won't break. over, OVERCOME. won't allow myself to be beat. overcome, overcome, rise back up. always trouble surrounding me. but i've learned from past mistakes. i've seen true hate, felt real pain. still there's nothing that can stop me. break me down, i will rise back up. i'll overcome. best friends become strangers. true love it turns to hate. nothing you can do to me. something deep inside tells me to be free.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
depressed